So I have decided to take some time for me. Pretty self centered move? Not really. For almost a year I have started to feel a bit off. Kind of like a door mat. No. Actually, like a door mat. And I basically am over it. The never ending lists. The never ending running around. So I have decided to start doing some things for me and not apologizing for it. My children will always be number 1 on my priority list, so that is a given. But with that, I think me being a close second on this list will be my new standing.
So what will I do now with my new attitude? Starters, going back to yoga. I haven’t been in over a year and a half. And going by myself, alone with my own thoughts or lack of thoughts, is sounding pretty good.
Another thing is connecting with friends. I miss seeing my peeps. With my kids activities, Miss P’s dance commitments, soccer, selling the home and dealing with the issues involving that and the new build and all the stress with that, I had not one day to rest or see anyone. It has taken a toll on me. Texting was like the only form of communication which isn’t a great way to keep in touch.
I have dinner with friends planned once a week for the next month and yoga on the schedule once a week. Making steps in the right direction folks.
I knew when we would move from the old home, S and Miss F might not remember much of it as they grew older. I wanted to take pictures of my children at their only home they ever knew for their very last time there.
It was a great home. Memories flooded every room and the yard supplied countless kick ball games, tag, sledding, garden building, snowmen, bike riding and chasing after the dogs days for them. So on the last day they were there, it was freezing, like below zero temperatures. Sadie refused to get back in the car because she loved to run through the woods and meander around the yard. I think she will miss the place more than anyone. Miss F fell asleep on the ride over, so I captured Miss P and S first.
Miss P learned how to ride her bike here, Irish dance, read, become a sister, and countless other character building events.
S learned how to build legos, crawl, walk, run, read, ride his bike, be a big brother, and countless other things as well.
And Miss F. She probably won’t remember much of her very first home, but I can assure you she filled those rooms with laughter and love.
This happened last weekend.
My girl met Elsa from Frozen. Miss F sings all the songs from the movie. She actually knows the words and acts the songs out like they were in the movie.
Oh! How I adore her!
And wisely spoken by Emmanuelle Alt.
When we started to move last month, Miss F was so excited. I snapped this on the first day we brought over furniture to the new place. We literally took a month to move. It was very stressful. I think I aged 20 years in that 4 week span. I knew it would be like that for this move. But the added sub-zero temperatures, snow, dealing with the puppy, dust etc, it was not easy.
I am glad it is over with.
I think we all are.